Faith, trust, and pixie dust

Patrick made a comment the other night that I’ve been thinking about the whole time I’ve been here. We were on the monorail over-looking the MK and it was just like, “Wow. I work here. This is my life. It’s magical”.

But it’s not as magical as it seems down here. It’s a life. It’s a struggle. Yes, you get the free access to the park and the 50% holiday discount, but I can’t tell you how many people tell you to break free from the Mouse. I can’t begin to tell you how many people I’ve met who are living from paycheck to paycheck or who just came to work here to find work. Especially in today’s work world with the crazy economy, it’s getting tougher, and this is just one way to make money.

In a perfect world, I would love to stay down here. I’ve met amazing people, I have a lot of fun running around in the parks, I’m doing shows with STAGE (Look for A Christmas Story posters and info!), and I’m getting a lot of exercise running around; yet I feel the pain when paychecks come around because we’re college programmers ~ but it’s not like many Full Time positions make that much more than we do – which is awful. I’ve learned valuable work ethics and experiences which I will take with me in the future – ie the Basics and to stay in the “green zone”. LoL. I’ve learned about Corporate Communications and Guest Service the Disney Way, which is so valuable. I really feel prepared for NYC and the real world. Let it be known.

But at the same time, I feel like I’m going to be giving up part of who I am by leaving here. I won’t have this magic, and I hope to God I won’t be swept up in the harsh reality of living a “normal” life with a “normal” job in a “normal” apartment. As I said the other night, I’m leaving now, but it doesn’t mean I won’t come back in the future. I’m contemplating seasonal status, but not sure if I’d be able to get down here often enough to honor that decision.

I am, however, going to the Entertainment extension auditions no matter what. With the hold on hiring Entertainment, I know this is a slim to none chance – but I’m going to try anyway. This has been my dream since I was little, and I know I have enough energy to try and fulfill that one dream now.

I will never, ever, in my wildest dreams ever regret the decision of becoming one of the many Disney College Programmers. I am having a blast and plan on making the most of my next two months. I hope to blog a little more with indept entries during this time, so look for them – otherwise also look at my vlogs on Facebook. Some are…hilarious.

I really miss my family also. I hate having to call them every five seconds to tell them about an amazing experience or tidbit. I know my mom has told me I don’t need to call as much. Hahaha. My parents will be here in a week and I KNOW I’ll be an emotional wreck when they get here. I’ll hopefully be off when they’re here so I can spend as much time as possible with them.

I also really really miss my nutcase dog. :( My mom sends me pictures of her all the time.

All right, I should probably get started on my day. I’m off, but have A Christmas Story later on….

Talk to you later!